My pick for this month's showcase is the exquisite Shiksha Dheda whose recent flurry of publications is a testament to her talent. Just wait until you reach the last line of her heartbreaking poem!
Shiksha Dheda is a South African of Indian descent. She uses poetry (mostly) to express her internal and external struggles and journeys, inclusive of her OCD and depression roller-coaster ventures. Mostly, however, she writes in the hopes that someday, someone will see her as she is; an incomplete poem.
Her work has been featured (on/forthcoming) in Mixed Mag, The Daily Drunk, Visual Verse, The Kalahari Review, Off Menu Press, Brave Voices, Glitchwords, Versification, and others. You can connect with her on twitter @ShikshaWrites.
You keep me at sea;
never let me walk upon the stable
earth of man.
I wander from land to land,
meeting and leaving innumerable people;
yet I cannot find the shore that I seek.
You prohibit me from throwing down my anchor,
from settling down; unlike
so many others that have come before me.
And that will come after I am gone.
You give me no direction
Just like the vast mass of endless water,
are the many intangible pieces
of the puzzling questions
I have to ask you.
How was I to know?
That to reach your shore, I would
have to drown first.
The inspiration behind the poem:
I wrote this poem at a point that I felt particularly helpless and directionless. I felt as though everything was too overwhelming for me; almost as though I were a sailor on a small boat – stuck at sea, subjected to the ocean’s every whim and fancy, not having a choice of my own. It reflects my own battles with mental illness. I often feel as though I am helpless against the whims of my disorder(s). I have stopped fighting against them [the disorders] and recently, have unfortunately succumbed to them, to a large extent. There are many days wherein I cannot discern where my disorder ends and where I begin.
You can connect with Shiksha on twitter or on her website. Her debut poetry collection "Washed Away" is out soon with Alien Buddha Press.
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